The Diagnosis
In December 2024, I was diagnosed with breast cancer, an aggressive form that required equally aggressive treatment. The diagnosis led to a seven‑month leave from work, while I focused on healing and rebuilding my strength. Cancer changed many things in my life, but one of the most unexpected transformations happened in the way I lead.
When Control Is No Longer Yours
Before cancer, I believed good leadership meant being present, involved, aware of every detail.
I was proud of that. Control felt like responsibility.
Then cancer forced my hand.
Treatment schedules were not negotiable. Energy came in waves. My body, once predictable, had its own agenda. I had no choice but to let go, not just of work, but of control.
I had to trust…
Trust my team.
Trust the systems we had built together.
Trust that the leadership I had practiced before my diagnosis would hold even when I was gone.
And something incredible happened:
They did great.
They stepped up, made decisions, solved problems, supported one another, and proved to me that I had been leading them well long before I ever stepped away.
That realization was both humbling and empowering.
Leadership is not about being indispensable.
True leadership is about building something that functions and thrives without you.
Leading in the Present, Not Just Toward the Future
I’ve always believed in long‑term goals—strategy, vision, and planning ahead, and cancer didn’t take that away, but it changed how I relate to those goals. Treatment taught me that long journeys are survived one day at a time; you don’t conquer cancer by obsessing over the end, you survive by showing up for today’s appointment, today’s pill, today’s rest, today’s breath. That lesson quietly reshaped my leadership. I still set long‑term goals, but now I lead more intentionally in the present, grounded in what can be done today to move forward with purpose.
I focus on:
- What matters today
- What can be done now
- What progress looks like in this moment
Paradoxically, this has made me more effective—not less.
Because presence creates clarity.
And clarity builds momentum.
A Lighter Way of Carrying Challenges
Another unexpected shift is that I am more carefree, not careless, but lighter. Things that once stressed me out, consumed my energy, or kept me awake at night now feel like what they truly are: challenges, not catastrophes. Cancer recalibrated my sense of urgency, and I know now, deeply, that most problems are solvable, most setbacks are temporary, and stress rarely improves outcomes. When something goes wrong, I don’t spiral; I think, we’ll resolve this—we always do. That inner calm has changed how I show up for my team, with less tension, more clarity, and a steadier presence.
The Leader I Am Becoming
Cancer didn’t make me a better leader overnight.
But it stripped away excess.
It taught me:
- To trust instead of control
- To value presence over perfection
- To separate importance from urgency
- To lead with confidence, not fear
Most of all, it reminded me that leadership is not about proving strength at all times.
Sometimes, leadership is about allowing vulnerability, stepping back, and discovering that what you built is strong enough to stand.
I didn’t just survive cancer.
I returned with a clearer sense of what truly matters, at work, in leadership, and in life, and that perspective is something I will carry forward, one intentional day at a time.


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